Watched Billy Graham: An Extraordinary Journey. Enjoyed this very much, and cried a lot watching it, mainly for those who reached out to God and their lives were changed. Well worth watching. always I loved the Billy and Ruth love story.
Great video, although I think that the fireplace is too high. Heat rises so only the top half of the room would be warm first. So I would have lowered the fireplace to nearly floor level and made the windows a tad wider. This guy does an excellent job.
Apathetic People in a Situation.
Years ago I was with my ex-wife and a very bad thing was told to her about me (health) and she cried, was very stressed out and upset, and I was feeling that it was so nice that she cared. But not long after that she left and was cold to me. Ever since then I have been rather confused about how she could care, and then switch off and not care at all.
She was in a “Situation, a Mental State” that suited the circumstances that she was in with me as the children’s mother and a wife, thus she expected herself to be a wife, loyal and to care, even though she didn’t care at all. This total belief in herself being honourable and caring as a wife brought forward the tears, the body behaviour that all gave the impression of caring, because it was expected by us the other members of the family and herself that she showed that she tearfully cared.
My ex like this, and in this wife state of mind, would have totally backed up the way she acted and would have been furious if someone said that she faked it. You see, people “in a situation” (A mental-mode) are totally committed to believing that they are in that situation as themselves, and they therefore act their role to total truth in their own minds, and this acting is what people see and believe is a person who cares.
But when the Apathetic person then see’s herself as wanting to depart this situation all their own logic will spell it out, and they will act that out knowing that this role requires her to be cold and to efficiently distance her from her husband or partner. It was easy because she didn’t care in the first place, but to even her she didn’t know this. This is how people can walk out of relationships or be cruel to innocent people so easily.
Some of my ex’s were like this too. Seemed to ever so deeply care, and a little while later I find out she is screwing other guys and when she found out I knew, was cold and didn’t care that i was hurt. Some of that would be to protect herself (to herself) of her guilt, but in reality if she is doing other guys she knew it was going to hurt me very deeply, and simply, she didn’t care.
Some people fake caring yes, but many believe that they should show tears, trembling, sadness, and the like, because it is what people expect of them so they cry the tears, say the right things, hug, cuddle, and seem ever so sad, but the reality is that they are apathetic, unable to care, but even they don’t know that – they just walk away happy to end it all, and they think that this cold action is just them walking away to start a new life.
This is why it is so easily for people to use us, abuse us, lie to us, and walk away when they are caught out (found out), they never cared in the first place, and they have no real indication to themselves that they are apathetic and col;d, they just assume that they are human, thus they care, and when the going gets tough they walk away, still thinking that they are kind, genuine and loving while completely acting out the opposite.
Apathetic people keep sane by lying to themselves and to others, and they feel no guilt (like empathic people do) because they are apathetic, a state of being and living that they refuse to believe that they are.
When an apathetic person Plays the Victim, he or she can actually believe that they are a victim, especially when other people support that person being a victim. Thus this person feels no sadness or guilt hurting and harming innocent people.
One of the weird things about people playing the victim is that they gather Flying Monkeys around them, and when the victim starts to doubt that he or she is actually a real victim, the support from the already convinced Flying Monkeys reassures the person playing the victim that he or she is actually a victim (It goes around in continuous circles in their minds), when in fact the total truth is the opposite, and thus the person playing the victim continues to hurt innocent people with lies and does not care about the long tern suffering and life damage that they are doing to the innocent.
Playing the Victim is a Delusion, a pretense, a image of themselves being stalked, or chased or in some way hard done by someone because of such and such, and so forth, a total belief that is completely fake and faked upon themselves.
Signs You Have a Victimhood Mindset
- You blame others for the way your life is.
- You truly think life is against you.
- You have trouble coping with problems in your life and feel powerless against them.
- You feel stuck in life and approach things with a negative attitude.
https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/what-is-a-victim-mentality
One of my cats is not “all there”. He had issues when he was born, but he survived, but is thin and very timid. He is outside looking at a female cat that is on heat, and he knows that he is supposed to have sex with her, but she is playing hard to get, and he looks at me confused.
I feel sorry for him because he doesn’t get the whole chase the female thing. He is slow thinking, stumbles, a real nice cat though.
Covering Your Bases
What it means is covering your base so that no one can get home – home run.
An example is the doctors and chemists didn’t have my correct phone number, thus I was not able to get my pills and might have died or had a stroke. My enemies would love that.
Now just for example, no accusations, just an example. The girls who were kittens friends, kitten being the one who started and keeps the Character Assassination going against me with lies, playing the victim and gossip etc, worked at the chemist at one stage.
But if the parents of kitten, Jeannette, set it up so that my phone number was changed and I was unable to get my pills on time and then I died, they would also cover their bases and because the young females worked there, the parents could say if there was an investigation to my death, “Oh, well they feared James and probably changed his phone number out of fear.”
Thus, the young girls who support and protect their parents and the head of the criminal group that they are all a part of, would be wall of protection between my death and the parents who made it happen, thus the young females and kitten would take the blame and get manslaughter, years in prison.
This is how people/criminals cover their bases. They do bad things and then they let other people take the blame for their bad deeds, should it come to that. There is no honour amongst criminals.
“There is no honour amongst criminals” is a common expression suggesting that those who engage in illegal activities lack a moral code and are untrustworthy.
Foots much better after a rest and painkillers.
When I get my prescription for my high blood pressure pills that stop me from getting a stroke or heart attack, the doctors at Tokoroa Doctors tell me the cost for the prescription and the chemist in town tell me that the prescription is ready. The last two times this did not happen, but a woman at the town chemist asked me, after I told her that I was not notified yet again about my prescription being ready, what my phone number was and I told her and on the prescription that was not my phone number – thus they were sending the messages somewhere else and I was not getting them, obviously risking me having a heart attack or stroke due to me not being able to get my pills that I must take every day.
Obviously someone at the Chemist had changed my phone number on my computer records or someone at the doctors, or someone at both working together. My phone number has been the same for many years, about over a decade I would guess, thus only getting the pills for the last 3-4 years means that my original records had my correct phone number because both the doctors and chemist would sent me text messages.
In the past the young females working there are/were Kittens friends, did they do this to eliminate me from their parents problems, because the parents made it obvious that they hate me, and to help Kitten in her attacks on me, or was it just more Flying Monkeys seduced by Jeannette, or coincidentally a coincidence in both the doctors and chemists offices that no one noticed. If I had died, would that have been manslaughter.
The good news that after months I finally got a text message from the doctors who must have realized the error sent me an update on my doctors bill. I had been putting money in the doctors account and guessing how much it was.
Billy Graham, Martin Luther and many others came to that choice between believing in the Bible as God’s true word or as a religious book. Each felt int he end after much struggle that they must believe in the Bible word for word, and this is where I always felt that they failed God but had no idea that they did it.
Billy Graham was, as far as i cam tell though, an amazing man who changed many people’s lives for the better and God did influence Billy.
The thing that is most amazing with graham, Luther and others, is that when God decides to sue them them the wheels start turning in miraculous ways and their lives practically change overnight and God Blesses them.
A watershed is a turning point, or historic moment.
Watching
Billy Graham: An Extraordinary Journey
People who suffer Apathy feel that the suffering of other people, innocent other people, is acceptable so that the Apathetic can gain their goal.
Even though the German public were getting a clear idea/image of the war, of the Germans part in the war, how unfair, cruel and even evil they were destroying people’s lives in other countries, they became comfortable with it.
The public back home had been promised that the Allies would never bomb Berlin, they were comfortable, their men heroes in the war. Plenty of food, nice homes, more amenities (mainly because the Jewish family’s were removed), the people of Germany were in a cozy comfort zone far away from the war.
For some of them their conscience would have bothered them for taking death to other countries, but their own needs and wants were met, food was plentiful, why should they complain. So they ignored the guilty feelings, ignored the questions popping up in their own minds, they felt no shame.
They had found their inner peace within amidst their own support of evil, so they listened to Hitler and his speeches, they consoled, they were a proud race, and according to all news reports they were winning easily.
Even when The Third Reich took the young women and used them as breeders to mate with many German men to produce the perfect German race, the mothers and fathers let it happen, because the public had been seduced in a very short period of time to be proud of Hitler, and the Third Reich, to be proud to let their daughters become used just for breeding.
Later when Berlin was actually bombed and the people forced to live underground with their animals, many of the Berlin women, children, elderly dead from the bombing, most still remained faithful to Hitler and his plan. When stories came back about what was happening to the Jews, the people saw it as a need.
Hitler was designing in the Germans minds Apathy to replace Empathy – the people used to care, but for their comforts, national pride, and what they thought was honour, and so on, they became more and more apathetic, obedient and faithful to the evil cause.
Even as they watched people suffering, they stayed blindly obedient to the war effort no matter how evil and cruel it was to innocent people.
After the war, and they lost, Hitler dead, many were still broken hearted that Hitler was dead and the war to take over the world had failed.
I read on books that modern manipulators and politicians actually study what Hitler did, how he controlled the people, and copy it, because a proud apathetic people who will allow evil and cruelty and turn away from the bad going on around them, are the perfect people to be easily seduced, controlled and used for evil purposes and will obey what they are told to do.
One of the reasons, under much stress and heartache, I posted many emotional posts was to help people see that I was not the person who the Character Assassination were making me out to be.
But the more I posted about my emotions and feelings of today, many past memories and feelings would rise and I would have to deal with them.
It is always good if it heals us, even though it can be very difficult to do.
Tainui School has new fences on the inside, probably for children with disabilities, and it’s a bit of a nightmare for security checks. I have had to change how I check the school now. Haydn probably is well pleased with it though.
People get offended even we distance ourselves from them, but it must be done sometimes for our own sake.
Is it finally Spring?
My foot is in heaps of pain. Able 10pm yesterday it started to hurt. Feels like a hot ember burning inside. Just pressing on the accelerator pedal is painful, walking, ouch. I was kinda hoping it would just go away, but not so yet. 🙁
Feels like something is broken, but probably is a muscle issue.