Tanya Smith on what it’s like living with Crohn’s disease.
It kind of gets to you when she starts crying.
It was time to change her story, since the evidence did not match her story and she was going to go down as well, prison life sucks.
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One of the issues our security company can have is new Principals who don’t realise the service that we do for their school is far better than what any other security companies offer. I have never heard of another security company checking all the school windows and doors. And this is why we have gotten so many school contracts, we go the extra mile and many times we set alarms and go to the school when the Principal asks us to do so and we don’t charge for the extra work.
The other security companies only check (as far as I have been told) the front door of the Admin building, they put in a tag and leave, or sometimes they drive around the school and shine a torch to check the school but don’t get out and physically check the doors.
Because of the extra care we take the schools have less break-ins, due to us locking the doors and windows that the teachers forgot to lock, and sometimes its half the school – this has happened to me a few times, I get to the school and most of the doors and windows are open and the alarms not set. The schools appreciate this extra effort, but the new Principals can assume that they will get the same effort from the other security companies.
We also respond to alarms much faster than other schools, and this saves the school much money.
Some Principals of the past, have really gotten angry if they find something wrong that they assume that I should have done, but they back off when they realise that a teacher could have come back tot he school after hours and done it, and also if they get rid of us and take on another security company the other security company won’t check the doors and windows.
My argument like about doors being unlocked is, first the Principal is supposed to teach their own adult staff to lock up, its not that hard, and also teachers often come in to schools at 4am or so and open the door, go in, and forget to lock the door on the way out.
I remember getting a huge telling off by Colin over that at 4am, so I went to the school in question and found the door locked. I told Colin, and I said that I assumed a teacher went in, used the classroom at probably 3:30am, then went home forgot to lock the door, Colin found it unlocked and blamed me, but the teacher went back in and locked the door once he or she realised that he or she had forgot to lock the door.
I have found a teacher on site, a door open, I ask the teacher to remember to close the door when she left, and came back at 2am and the same door is wide open, the teacher forgot. Its more common that one thinks.
Friday is the worst day for this. Sometimes on my first check of a school I am there half an hour to an hour locking doors and windows because the teachers are in a hurry to go home and forget to lock up.
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On May 1, 1903, an African-American man named Will West entered the United States Penitentiary at Leavenworth.
Like any other new prisoner, West was subjected to the standard admission procedure: prison clerks took photographs, a physical description, and eleven anthropometric measurements.
Using West’s measurements and description, identification clerks matched him to the record of William West, who had a previous conviction for murder. Not surprisingly, in the clerks’ view, West denied that he was this man.
The discovery of Will West’s past conviction must have seemed routine to the Leavenworth clerks: once again, the world-famous Bertillon system of identification had prevented a criminal from escaping his past. Once again, science had exposed a criminal’s lies and evasions.
This incident suddenly deviated from the usual, however, when the clerks discovered to their amazement that this same William West was already incarcerated at Leavenworth!
According to authors Harris Hawthorne Wilder and Bert Wentworth (1918): “From the Bertillon measurements thus obtained, [the record keeper] went to the file, and returned with the card the measurements called for, properly filled out…and bearing the name, “William West.” This card was shown to the prisoner, who grinned in amazement, and said,
“That’s my picture, but I don’t know where you got it, for I know I have never been here before.” The record clerk turned the card over, and read the particulars there given, including the statements that this man was already a prisoner at the same institution, having been committed to a life sentence on September 9, 1901, for the crime of murder.
It was the case of a doppelgänger, a person who looked heavily like the other. It was also claimed, but never proven, that they were twins. Because of this case fingerprints were used as the main way to identify people.
I remember telling people on Facebook that there was a doppelgänger of me, and that he had used my name to cause me trouble and he got out of trouble, and I have always been heavily suspicion that the Beale family (because I found out about their criminal past but had no proof) who made up the Character Assassination of my public image (so people and the Police would not listen to me if I told anyone of the Beale’s criminal ways) used this man for fake images and fake video recordings etc, and they paid him well for doing it.
The last time I saw the guy who was said to look very much like me, he was walking around town in very nice clothing and looking like he had come in to some money, before that he delivered pamphlets (like my children and I did years ago) for his living, and now it seems he has disappeared to live somewhere else having successfully done his evil deeds.
But also Sheryl put a photo up on Facebook of which I was sure was me, but I said to her that i had never been to the place of the photo. It was very creepy, to me anyway. And for years I have been called randomly Jack or John, so my guess is that while dad lived here (about a decade or so) in Tokoroa he either had another family or was just the usual having lots of affairs like mother, and the result was lots of children who would all be around my age now from the women or woman he got pregnant, and since I look practically exactly the same as dad, my guess is that the other males may have as well.
I have taken to putting my t-shirts h the “messages” on them on the outside of my clothesline so that as I walk around the back yard I still see the positive messages and verses.
All that is ever known is the knowing of experience, and it is knowing that knows this knowing. There is just knowing knowing only knowing, and there is nothing in this knowing other than this knowing which it could be divided into a multiplicity and diversity of objects and selves. – Rupert Spira.
I find the Artificial Intelligence interesting and on a few occasions found it totally false, but so far mostly its reasonably correct or a matter-all–factual.
In the context of internet slang and popular culture, ASMR is an acronym for “Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response,” which refers to a tingling sensation that some people experience in response to certain audio or visual stimuli. These stimuli can include sounds like whispers, crinkling, or gentle voices, or visual triggers like watching someone get a haircut.
ASMR videos and content have become increasingly popular online, with many creators specifically designing content to induce this sensation in viewers. People who experience ASMR often describe the feeling as a pleasant, tingling, static-like, or goosebump-like sensation that may spread across the scalp or down the spine.
While ASMR is a subjective experience and not everyone experiences it, those who do often find it to be relaxing and calming. The phenomenon has gained popularity due to its potential to alleviate anxiety and promote sleep.
– Google AI.
Many of us when we find God, struggle to surrender, because we don’t want the life God wants for us. We may still want to be as we were in the past, just without the alcohol, drugs, sex abuses, and so forth.
God, in time, presents us with a (to us) questionable future with God, here on Earth, probably with a person or people whom we are not interested in being with.
Because of this we deeply struggle with surrendering to God for what we are not really interested in even though it comes from God and has many wonderful promises attached to it.
Questioning God’s Will is scary, makes us distrust God because we don’t want for our own lives what God wants for our life.
We are frightened that God will get angry, or that we are not good enough because we don’t want what God wants for us, and we may even fear rejection.
Walking away from God’s plan for us is easy, even comforting, even calming, yet God still persists.
God does not offer a way out, nor does God want us to find a way out, so, like Jonah, we suffer, we reject God’s Will and we keep suffering. The suffering stops when we stop rejecting God’s plan or we die first.
One of the reasons why many of us don’t fear death, nor do we wish for love any more, is because to wish for love means staying alive, having a reason to stay, and even a wish to stay.
The reason why we don’t fear death is that we tire of the fools, foolish and gleefully foolish, its like the song says, the people they line up to get another low, but in reality they do it each day without even questioning why they do it, they just do it, feel bad, then do it again the very next day.
In religious belief wanting to die is bad, wrong, foolish and so forth – and life is a gift from God, a chance to do good, to change the world, to help others, but many of us tire of the journey and the people, and find that the eagerness to move on becomes a hope, dream, then a desire, and while we don’t kill ourselves, we become very comfortable with the knowledge that one day it will happen and we will depart from the world of which we never really liked, full of people we never really liked, and will finally find peace.
This always reminds me of John Le Mesurier, it is said that he was very happy to die, he believed that he had done all that he could, and when it was time to go he was very happy to leave.
In 1939, Le Mesurier accepted a role in the Robert Morley play Goodness, How Sad!, directed by June Melville—whose father Frederick owned several theatres, including the Lyceum, Prince’s and Brixton. Melville and Le Mesurier soon began a romance, and were married in April 1940. Le Mesurier was conscripted into the army in September 1940; after his demobilisation in 1946, he discovered that his wife had become an alcoholic: “She became careless about appointments and haphazard professionally”. As a result, the couple separated and were divorced in 1949.
In June 1947, Le Mesurier went with fellow actor Geoffrey Hibbert to the Players’ Theatre in London, where among the performers was Hattie Jacques. Le Mesurier and Jacques began to see each other regularly; Le Mesurier was still married, albeit estranged from his wife. In 1949, when his divorce came through, Jacques proposed to Le Mesurier, asking him, “Don’t you think it’s about time we got married?” The couple married in November 1949 and had two sons, Robin and Kim.
Jacques began an affair in 1962 with her driver, John Schofield, who gave her the attention and support that Le Mesurier did not. When Jacques decided to move Schofield into the family home, Le Mesurier moved into a separate room and tried to repair the marriage. He later commented about this period: “I could have walked out, but, whatever my feelings, I loved Hattie and the children and I was certain—I had to be certain—that we could repair the damage.” The affair caused a downturn in his health; he collapsed on holiday in Tangier in 1963 and was hospitalised in Gibraltar.[ He returned to London to find the situation between his wife and her lover was unchanged, which caused a relapse.
During the final stages of the breakdown of his marriage, Le Mesurier met Joan Malin at the Establishment club in Soho in 1963. The following year he moved out of his marital house and that day proposed to Joan, who accepted his offer. Le Mesurier allowed Jacques to bring a divorce suit on grounds of his own infidelity, to ensure that the press blamed him for the break-up, thus avoiding any negative publicity for Jacques. Le Mesurier and Malin married in March 1966. A few months after they were married, Joan began a relationship with Tony Hancock and left Le Mesurier to move in with the comedian. Hancock was a self-confessed alcoholic by this time, and was verbally and physically abusive to Joan during their relationship.
After a year together, with Hancock’s violence towards her worsening, Joan attempted suicide; she subsequently realised that she could no longer live with Hancock and returned to her husband. Despite this, Le Mesurier remained friends with Hancock, calling him “a comic of true genius, capable of great warmth and generosity, but a tormented and unhappy man”. Without Le Mesurier’s knowledge, Joan resumed her affair with Hancock and, when the comic moved to Australia in 1968, she planned to follow him if he was able to overcome his alcoholism. She abandoned these plans and remained with Le Mesurier after Hancock committed suicide on 25 June 1968.
– Wikipedia.
John became an alcoholic, drug abuser, and his final words he said to his wife were “It’s all been rather lovely”, he slipped into a coma and died. I remember reading a short biography of his life where they said that with wife Hattie Jacques he was living in the house while she was bringing home men to sleep with, and he had to put up with that while trying to get the marriage back together.
Sometimes life is not the dream we thought as children it would be, and as we get older and life for us remains as it was when we were children, or people are not what we expected when we grew up, we turn to things that are toxic and bad for us which we hope will brighten up life, things like parties and alcohol, this doesn’t work.
But the end result for many people is a comforting hope that one day, we, like poor suffering John, will depart from what we didn’t really enjoy. Its something to hope for, and a very nice comforting thought.
When I was a child and we were playing hide and seek or I was just trying to get away from my sisters etc, if I were in a room and I had locked the door, like the bathroom door, or in room with a wooden floor as was all the floors in our house in Raynors Road, Huntly, I would pour a small amount of water on the floor if it were available.
Then I would look at the water and an angle and it would show the reflection of anyone outside of the door on the other side.
Our natural investigative instincts always want us to seek the truth in all aspects of our lives, but our emotional attachments tend to blind us to the reality and truths right in front of us.
The truth cannot set us free if we are making excuses for our haters, defending our mental and emotional captors, and ignoring the facts from the real genuine people in our lives.
If everything is not right in your life as you suppose it should be, then maybe it is because you have a mental brick wall around someone who you are protecting who has not your best interests at heart.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
2019
Thinking about how the mind, attitude and thinking changes over time, and how we can look back and say, “Wow, I never used to believe that, and I never liked that person before.”
One of the reasons for this change is before, while younger, family etc, may tell us what to think. But now as adults we develop the skills to think for ourselves and the view of people, life, the world changes in leaps and bounds, and from this point on we make our own choices based on our new thinking.
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Also what we read and saw on the past looks different now that we have gained, experience, wisdom and knowledge.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
2019.
If the other person has to choose between you and someone else, let them go. You should be their instant go to person for a loving relationship. No hesitation, no weighing up the perks, no struggling to decide, the thought should be instant, strong and sure.
If the other person is not sure, hesitates, has any form of struggle, then that person is not yours but someone else’s, the other person they are thinking of.
If you are struggling to decide between two, then you should choose neither. You will know when the right one is there because you will not even consider another person. In your heart there will be no hesitation, no struggle, no doubts, and your desire for the one you love will be instant, strong, firm and sure.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
2019.
If you are “Looking” then you will see that God leaves signs everywhere. If you pray about something keep your eyes looking. God uses many means to let us know His will or to help guide us in the right direction. Remember that God is good all the time, and God wants you to be like Him, good all the time.
Pray, Look, learn and listen. Read the Bible, and always be aware that God sees everywhere, God knows what you think and where you are going. Please God by pleasing your self and keeping to His ways – it can only be good for you. 
“Women of God can never be like women of the world.
The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are coarse; we need women who are kind.
There are enough women who are rude; we need women who are refined.
We have enough women of fame and fortune; we need more women of faith.
We have enough greed; we need more goodness.
We have enough vanity; we need more virtue.
We have enough popularity; we need more purity.”
– Margaret D. Nadauld.
When God gives us clear instruction through His Word or His Spirit within us, our response shows how much we trust Him. – Charles Stanley.
Because we were all given the sexual organs to reproduce and to enjoy sexual pleasure anyone can satisfy sexually another – the parts are all there and if the motivation is there then the act can be had and both sexually pleased.
The reason for the high rate of divorce, breakups and such is because the sexual side is completed (until overridden by the negative feelings of the mind) but the spiritual side of the relationship non-existent.
Physical attraction and physical pleasure works for a while, then the two realise that the other person is someone they really don’t like. So they stay together for a while, break up and continue that search for love, or she gets pregnant and they stay together for the sake of the child, marry and fake love, then divorce.
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In days of old the children were brought up by their concerned loving parents in such a way that the desire of the young adult was to get it right the first time and to have a forever marriage.
The idea was for the two to be equally yoked, compatible, have the same ideas, same desires for the future, and wants. As an equal force they are very strong as one, united, and in spiritual love.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
2019.
Dysfunctional:
“Not operating normally or properly & unable to deal adequately with normal social relations.”
Decades of dysfunction creates a society/country of people who are not operating normally (naturally) and are unable to deal with life. Give some of these people power and they will make laws to backup and support their beliefs which are based on their inability to cope and to think normally, in other words the leaders are a product of dysfunction and their laws, rules etc are not sufficient to help the people.
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Go on social media and debate with common people about something very important that is harming them and they will often argue against simple logic and common sense because they too are not functioning (not thinking for themselves) in the manner they were born to function.
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Actions from people of a dysfunctional society are:
Drinking and driving.
Texting and driving.
Domestic violence.
Drug and alcohol abuses.
Road rage.
Gambling.
Sex abuse.
Child emotional, sexual and physical abuses.
Leaders who pass laws that are immature and illogical.
etc, etc.
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If a sports team is failing the obvious the most common course of action is going back to the basics. This is the only course of action that we humans can take to bring back empathy, common sense and logic back so that we will function in our natural state of being that we thrived in the past.
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All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
2019.
People may offer you advice, but as long as they don’t experience what you are experiencing they know not what you are truly suffering from, so without the knowledge of experience and the same personal suffering they cannot offer advice that will heal, they will only offer advice from their own lack of experience (in what you are going through).
Often when one person shows courage others follow. They just need someone to show them that there is nothing to fear and that they are not alone in wanting justice and change.
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Example:
I worked on a job as a 17 year old. It was harsh hard work and the pay was very low. After 3 weeks of working in the hot Summer sun in bad conditions I went up to the boss and said that I quit. I told him that we were being ripped off and that we were not getting paid what we were worth.
3 weeks later one of the workers visited me and told me that the whole work crew was inspired by my move and they all walked out at the same time leaving the boss without a work crew. We all went on to better things.
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The only way for change to happen, justice to be done, and for a better future for us all is for people to have courage and to make the first move.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
Let us not be content to wait and see what will happen, but give us the determination to make the right things happen – Peter Marshall.
“It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror of another loving, caring human being.” – John Joseph Powell.