My workouts.
I keep forgetting to put on the Health app to record workouts. I have done more than what’s recorded here.
Tainui School ginger cat in the security car and on the car door, .
I had a dream, and on it a woman was very genuine, kind, loving and open. The Message:
Making love with someone who is open, honest, doesn’t lie from the start and is not trying to use him, makes love making honest, welcome, and the love true.
Sometimes when I go shopping in the supermarket there are men from about 45 upwards who are shopping on a weekday alone and many look sad. And I also remember the post guy who told me that after his wife left him he gave up, he just as I did, thought that a woman just was not worth the effort anymore.
For me, from birth with a Narcissist Feminist mother, a chauvinist father, and then from nearly every female I have ever had some private or romantic relationships with, they took and took, wanted more, and gave so little, all I got from them was sex, but only when they would let me.
After my ex-wife left in 2004 I said to myself that sex was just not worth it, and I gave up interest in sex. From 2004 up to know lots of females have assumed that I want their bodies, and the Beale’s Character Assassination didn’t help, because it spurred vainly and ego in young females all assuming that lust was my game and they were the desirable things to lust.
Sex is not the actual turn-off of women. Its their ego’s, vanity, and that adds up to some form of Narcissism, to the man she is with that means emotional mental torture. So if you balance the sex pleasure with mental torture, gaslighting, once a month irrational period tantrums and such, and you realise logically that the desire for a woman drops in leaps and bounds and being single is far more pleasurable than a sexual encounter with some vain emotionally insecure female who thinks that sh can control life with her smile and body.
If young males stopped following the modern female like dogs on heat, then the female would clean up their act to get a man. But, as Feminism designed it, the males of today are puppets for the control of young women, a control that started being pushed in to their minds by their own mothers.
A new section of the community has started and I believe that it is men like me, over 45 who simply still have sex drive, but are so very deeply sick and tired of demanding mind-bending female who use sex to get what they want and to control the man with sexual acts. If a man overcomes his sexual-weaknesses, he overcomes his desire for women and walks off leaving the entire lost female race behind him, and it s a struggle at first, but he moves on with a smile on his face knowing that he will never again suffer her Narcissist gaslighting, silent treatments, offering him sex like a reward for giving her whats she wants him to do (like people give their dog a treat for following a command).
Today’s feminist believes in homosexuality, woke, and other strange beliefs, and has become lost and are teaching their daughters, and sons, to be mentally messed up like thy are, yet they all think that their madness is normal.
I have been bullied by women my entire life up to 2004, and then from 2009 up to now, and still in this town I am still being bullied by insecure or Narcissist feminist women, bu the good news is that i can go home to my animals and at least for a while get some peace.
I believe that God does not want me to be lone, but the women out there, they are not what are good for me, they all see my kindness and care as weakness and so far they have all taken advantage of me for their own gain, slept with other males, and walked off and in the public eyes they are all heroes, and me, alone again, naturally. These days, it now seems that all this being alone, was the natural path for me from the beginning and love and happiness i what I must pass on to others, and help the world in that way.
I was thinking about romance and kissing. You at, when you have been single for as long as I have a vs not kissed anyone on the lips for 21 years it, you get to the stage where kissing and the rest is completely foreign, like a weird activity that people do that is irrational and seems to hold no purpose.
Then I remembered the Beale’s CharacterAssassination where they convinced many females that I was after them, and they all would think that I was very active with women.
But it’s weird how people cling to the myths and lies, even when there is no evidence.
I know I won’t ever be in a relationship because I have no comprehension of love making physically or of simple things like kissing.
Hugging is fine.
It would take a special woman to help a male who had been without a woman as long as I have. Because he simply has forgotten how to do any of it.
It’s easy to get give romance advice not do it
I think that this is how the monks and nuns felt. If you don’t partake in romance for 20 years or so you completely lose touch with it, and you completely lose desire, and in taste in romance, love, and especially the physical side of romance.
This is why they knew that they would never have sex again or be interested in marriage and so on.
Imagine some guy who has been like this and some females assuming that he wants sex with them, and he completely has shut those thoughts from his mind and life. The females are completely deluded.
There is a woman at a place I check and for weeks she is always at the place, after work to chat with me. And today it finally clicked on me that it looks like she wants a fling. I think she is married. She is half my age and we get on well. But even though she is suggestive and such I feel nothing and would turn her down, especially if she is married.
Just giving the man a helping hand out.
Pressure points has a lot to do with pressure, where and how much, and also how to actually press. I know of people who had weak hands and weak fingers and when they press pressure points in the correct place had no effect due to their physical weakness in their hands and fingers.
There are also what is called Kill Spots, or moves, hits that you can use that are or have been known to kill the opponents.
But what I discovered with sparring is that when you are attacked and you block that attack with your arm or a weapon, it is best to block on a pressure point because then before you even strike for the first time you have alr3eady hurt your opponent or taken them down.
A good person may struggle to sleep because something about life puzzles them,
a bad person cannot sleep because their conscience won’t let them sleep.
It doesn’t get better until you get better,
and you don’t get better until you accept “unconditional Love”, God’s way!
Through God’s Plan, for You!
When you walk away from Love you walk away from God and everything that God is,
you also walk away from God’s protection, God’s guidance and so on.
When you fall deeply and spiritually in love with someone, inside you, you long for that person heavily.
If the other person walks away or you are both for some reason not able to be together, you gain what they call, Anxiety, and as long as you are apart this brings on Depression.
Your Mind, Body, Soul, Desires, and much more long for what you currently do not have, so all of you, your entire psyche is suffering because it knows what it wants and needs. Remember, Love is a Need, its not about wanting sex, or wanting hugs, or wanting to control someone, Love is about wanting to be in the space of another human being of the opposite sex. Your whole being longs for long walks together, lots of talking, lots of sex, lots of being as one in each others space, both tearing apart from everyone else and being one as each other, a new Spiritual being, two become one.
Notice how you don’t need to train a cat to be a cat, to cover its own toilet-doings, or to catch mice, and this is because all of this is in the cats Blue-Print, the cats actions are natural and instinctive, the cat knows to catch mice because that knowledge is built into the cat before the cat was born.
Your Human Blue-Print is exactly the same, it knows how to function, it knows how to be human, it knows what to expect when you fall in love, because this love you fell for is your Destiny and your feelings, desires, emotions, are already inside you from birth.
Once you fall in love, your entire being clicks into receivership of that Love, and all the parts within you that are involved in this new Love expects what true love brings. If this is denied it causes you much suffering.
When you fell in love your body is now open to hugs, holding each other, tough, sexual arousal, sexual activity and sexual climax.
Your mind is wanting to hear that person’s voice, longing to hear that voice, longing to hear that person say your name lovingly, positively and with appreciation because you are there.
There is a Spiritual Void/Gap in everyone that was intended to be filled by a certain person. Spiritually you long to bring that other human being Spiritually into that Spiritual Gap, to make you complete, feel complete.
Your entire psyche is keyed up with apprehension waiting for that first kiss, that first contact, that first hug, sexual arousal, sexual contact, sexual consummation, all this is normal and good.
When the love is not fulfilled, the person suffers intense suffering in many parts of that persons being, and its like being torn apart or something that was shown to you like the carrot on a string tied to a long stick dangling in front of your face and you reach for it but you can never get to it, this causes stress, much stress, much frustration, and anxiety, as all your needs in all these areas are not being met,
and that in itself is like a long continuous torture a you try to live, cope, go through life as normal, but failing because all of you is not you, and the rest of you longs for what is missing.
My guess, is that many materialistic people fall in love, feel it, desire it, then are denied it or they pridefully kill it, and they turn to drug abuse, alcohol abuse, parties, lots of sex with many people, trying to fill that deep emptiness within. Many end up labelled as suffering a mental illness, many end up on antidepressants, many end up sports achievers, feminists, chauvinists, and so on, all trying to find a way
to deal with the feeling that life should mean so much more, but it doesn’t, that love should be so overwhelming and complete, but it isn’t, and so on.
All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
9-10-2023