30th-7-2025

It starts small. Like you re driving down a street, and you all of a sudden don’t recognise the street. You get to another street and you recognise that street. Its not age, its not going to a room to forget what you are doing, but that can be a part of it. Its like blanks in our memory that today we forget, but tomorrow we remember, until one day we don’t remember it at all.

Alzheimer’s disease is most common in people over the age of 65, it can affect younger individuals, including those in their 30s, 40s, and 50s.

The worst is remembering who you are, what you did in the past, or even tomorrow. But he not remembering things that you should know, like streets, where you are driving in the car, rod rules, where work is, people’s names, and so on, its frightening, and there is nothing that anyone can do about it once it sets in.

You can remember something happening, maybe something stressful, or getting angry, but the next day or even a little while after, you can’t remember what got you upset. You jsut remember that “something” got you upset.

Part is talking, forgetting what the conversation is, or what you are saying halfway through the sentence.

What Are the Signs of Alzheimer’s Disease?

 

The symptoms of Alzheimer’s can vary from one person to another. Memory problems are typically one of the first signs of the disease. Decline in non-memory aspects of cognition, such as finding the right word, trouble understanding visual images and spatial relationships, and impaired reasoning or judgment, may also signal the early stages of Alzheimer’s. As the disease progresses, symptoms become more severe and include increased confusion and behavior changes.
For most people with Alzheimer’s — those who have the late-onset variety — symptoms first appear in their mid-60s or later. When the disease develops before age 65, it’s considered early-onset.

Sporadic memory impairment refers to memory problems that are not inherited or part of a known family pattern. It is characterized by memory loss that occurs randomly and is not linked to a genetic predisposition. This type of memory impairment can arise from various causes, including medical conditions, lifestyle factors, or as a symptom of certain brain disorders

Familial: Relating to or occurring in a family or its members.

What is sporadic and familial?
 
The sporadic form of the disease can affect anyone and is dependent on genetic changes aquired during the lifetime of the affected individual. The familial form of the disease results when affected individuals inherit a defective copy of the Rb gene from one of their parents. – CancerQuest.

Watching

Still Alice 2014

Remember, he is running with his gear on as well.

Romance.  

 

The first comment I would like to make is that in High School you don’t need to be in a romantic relationship.

Peer pressure pushes people into early sex and romance far before people are ready or mature enough to deal with the situation.

There is no rush. Even if everyone else is getting into dating, relationships, and your mates are laying on the pressure there is absolutely no reason for you to join in.

So if you don’t feel that you are ready then take your time. Your being patient can help you concentrate on your education, future, and a lot of hassle going from romance  to romance.

Advice from an anonymous person:

Dear Girls,

I heard you like bad boys.

Those guys who act like they don’t care about you, which makes you try harder to make them like you.

Those guys who wouldn’t reply to your texts until later on, which makes you wait around and miss him more.

Those guys who act distant from you, which makes you try harder to get their attention.

Those guys who know they can get a lot of girls, which makes you more afraid to lose them.

Those guys who would show you they’re interested one day then act different the next day, which makes you too confused to make the decision to leave him.

Those guys who will make you fall for them but they can care less, which

makes you stuck and not being able to move on cause you care too much.

Has anyone ever told you you deserve better than that?

You probably have and you know what? It’s about time you realize that.

If a guy likes you, he’ll meet you halfway.

Simple as that.

Don’t settle for a bad boy when you deserve a good man.

– Author Unknown.

A lack of teaching in Life Skills and Life education can have us struggling to discover what romance and love are all about.
With my father being interested in his own life I was left basically to struggle with trying to figure out what romance was, how to love, be affectionate to a woman etc. This can lead us to making many foolish choices that we feel alter on is our foolishness, but in reality is a lack of education about love. romance, marriage, how to treat the opposite gender etc.

The Women of Weinsberg

Germany

 

When King Conrad III defeated the Duke of Welf (in the year 1140) and placed Weinsberg under siege, the wives of the besieged castle negotiated a surrender which granted them the right to leave with whatever they could carry on their shoulders. The king allowed them that much. Leaving everything else aside, each woman took her own husband on her shoulders and carried him out. When the king’s people saw what was happening, many of them said that that was not what had been meant and wanted to put a stop to it. But the king laughed and accepted the women’s clever trick. “A king” he said, “should always stand by his word.”

One of the issues I have when buying tools, is that I see something, buy it, and then it is much bigger than I thought, and this is often due to “what I have known”.

 

What I do is I saw a grinder on the Internet, even read the sizes, assumed it to be a certain size due to the grinders that I have personally use,d and I buy it, and when it is delivered it is far bigger than I thought.

I dod this from time to time, and the error or issue, is that I am thinking from what I know, have seen, and then when I see a photo of something I assume that it fits into the image of what i know abotu that item.

We seem to do this with people as well, until shown otherwise.

“[Luke:] “I can’t believe it.” [Yoda:] “That is why you fail.”

Be specific about the problem/situation and practice what you are going to say.

Saying “I feel like I’m not being heard” instead of “you don’t listen to me.” Changes it from an aggressive accusation to an assertive discussion point. This allows you to express yourself without making the other person defensive. Using “I” statements also helps you to define and understand how and why another person’s behaviour is affecting you. In turn the other person is more likely to understand your position if they are not being attacked.
– Gretchen Netterfield.

I just converted these pages to the new site.

Electronics.

“The true horror of existence is not the fear of death, but the fear of life. It is the fear of waking up each day to face the same struggles, the same disappointments, the same pain. It is the fear that nothing will ever change, that you are trapped in a cycle of suffering that you cannot escape.”
– Albert Camus

I have been living a version of this for many years, and if you read the comments many of us have. Basically the only thing that gives me any sort of desire to live is work, music and motivating people, educating them, and giving them the chances that no one gave me, and also especially leading them to love, empathy, God and caring genuine relationships.

Trouble is, is that sometimes darkness arrives in the form of bad treatment that i don’t actually deserve, and then the countdown begins all over again, sadness, tears, lack of energy to do anything, depression, and plodding on with no real will to continue, and this goes on for a while.

If I mention this to anyone they claim that I just want sympathy or they say that “It is your own fault anyway!” as some of my children believe, so where does one turn. God helps, but God cannot make other people understand. Because of this we learn to say nothing, to cry alone, to be sad and smile as if happy, to fake that the darkness that people push upon us is light, and we learn that suffering in silence and alone makes other people happy, so we must give them what they want.

Imagine someone in  Concentration Camp in Germany in 1945, did anyone care, did anyone want to save that person on that day, did anyone say encouraging things or did they just die.

You see, God can only do so much, the saving of ourselves and each other is supposed to be from each one of us to each other.

To many suicide becomes a pill, a switch to just turn it out, turn life off, and stop what we are living that is not a form of happiness or enjoyment, thus we laugh, smile, and all the time inside feel that life is empty, loveless, cold, cardboard, just not worth living.

And then hope comes in some small form, and so we build on that, over and over again this happens, but it doesn’t go anywhere, we don’t go anywhere, we settle back into darkness, depression, sadness, not fears, not worries, just a grey sadness.

You see, it is people, selfish people, who turn from us, walk away, and prove to us indefinitely that they really don’t care, they don’t ring, they don’t text, they simply cut us off, and then we realise what we have been denying ourselves for many years, that the person/people who we did so much for, don’t care, and they don’t care that they don’t care, and that is when you know that they are not coming back and that nothing is going to change.

You meet someone knew, hope starts again, but they terminate the friendship for this or that reason, and what you may be a seedling is nothing, was nothing, and nothing to the person you had hoped that you may be needed, wanted and loved by.

Once we understand that over and over again we are just fooling ourselves then we realise that we are only here to pass time.

Many will commit suicide because they simply just want to speed things up, because waking up alone, breakfast alone, walks alone, lunch alone, dinners alone, all adds up to the realization, that we truly as an individual are alone and this is because other people don’t mind us being alone, sad and without.

Because at this part in their lives they are not alone, and surrounded by falseness, fake people, cardboard cutouts that they sleep with, they think that they have it right, until they too, are older and alone. Then they get it.

The problem with people who suffer from Factitious disorder imposed on another is that they love, adore and protect the very people who make them sick and helpless.

A policeman just visited. He told me that they had an anonymous call about me, complaining about a Renee Beale being victimized by me with stuff that I wrote on Facebook. It seemed that it is obvious that Renee is calling the Police to once again victimize me and blame-shift her mothers abuse of her on to me.

I told him where Renee lived (as far as i know) and that I have no idea what she looks like these days as I have not seen her in many years now.

I told him that back in 2009 and before, I was Christian Counseling people and some had told me that they had been abused by Jeanette, but I had no evidence, and I said that she is probably scared of getting caught. Hopefully they will follow up with an investigation into the Beale’s, and their pasts. The cool thing is that they won’t even know that it is happening.

I explained to him all about the Beale’s Character Assassination, how Renee had been lying about me to everyone in town for many years. I also explained that Renee is mentally ill, that she imagines stuff, and that her mother had used “Munchausen syndrome by proxy ” on Renee and that she has been sending the Police to my house for years to threaten me.”

He said that he had read what i wrote on the Internet, but to avoid using Renee’s name, but he found nothing bad at all bad or connected with Renee, and liked the stuff I wrote.

He gave me his card and said that if I had any trouble with Renee or her family to contact him and he would deal with it. This also means that if Renee sends more Police to threaten me that I can contact this Policeman and he would deal with them as well.

He was confused about why they read my web site. I said that the story that they say is that your enemies read everything that you write.

 

I won’t mention your name again Renee, but please stop lying to everyone about me. Please stop coming to my blog or web site.

I don’t hate you, but with the way your family and friends have you drugged up, manipulated and gaslighted, all you can desire is to destroy me. advice: Stop being a puppet for evil people.

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