1st-7-2025

In the Dr. Hook song “Sylvia’s Mother” when the mother says please call back again sir, she didn’t say it to be nice, she said it out loud so that Sylvia would not know who was on the phone and run to it.

Please don’t accept the fake care of Narcissist as love. Parents who deliberately cause their child to be unwell pretend to care, and to some degree they do care.
They need the child to stay alive so that the parents can gain whatever they can get from the child/adult-child being physically or mentally sick all the time.
To the victim he or she see’s the mother can be spending hours and hours fussing over her the victim, so they assume that the money and time spent msut be love, but it is the opposite, it is a deliberate attempt to keep the child unwell, especially mentally, to keep the child/adult-child sick. The mother is mostly known to do this, but also the husband/wife as well.

Factitious disorder imposed on another, also known as fabricated or induced illness by carers, and first named as Munchausen syndrome by proxy, is a condition in which a caregiver creates the appearance of health problems in another person, typically their child. Wikipedia.


When a person is in captivity of their own mind with a Narcissist she will try to recreate the captivity in her own mind as a comfort zone to please the Narcissist and family and friends. Thus she has become her own gaslighting-Narcissist, her own victim of Narcissist captivity. The actual Narcissist can smugly help her become his victim because she fears public ridicule if she left Mr Narcissist Perfect.

Society plants a path in your mind to work, pay bills, and buy buy buy.
The Narcissist plants a path of faked happiness in front of the victim and as people are sucked into liberalism, communism, capitalism etc, the victim of the Narcissist is sucked into a planned path of the victim remaining a victim forever while the Narcissist enjoys the benefits of her youth, a sexual slave, her total obedience (or else) and so on.

The closer to Christ you become the more free you get, the closer to Satan the more trapped you are – do you feel trapped?

As far as i have made out the Law of Attraction is simply God and Satan fulfilling their roles of good and evil in the world as required by the people of the world.
Thus,if you pray for a sexy, hot man for your bed, Satan will deliver.
If you ask for Love, God will deliver. It goes like that.

‎Wednesday, ‎27 ‎September ‎2023, ‏‎1:26:10 pm

I am like this,. I love competition, I love to test myself against others and that is why I have to stop myself from being like this, not because of health but ego. I have to stop myself because pride demands of me that i win, so when young guy challenges me on a bike I thrash him, which is really stupid because it may boost my ego and lower his sense of accomplishment, you see, they see my hair, the
could and see an easy win, and then they get thrashed and it really hurts. The last guy I thrashed, probably around 18 maybe, after I had totally beat him in front of everyone at the lake he looked so sad, he was looking at the ground and would not look at me, and I felt like a bully, so I am forcing myself not to try be competitive, its n old bad habit I have.
I saw a friend I sued to work with at Kinlieth and he told me how they all thought that I was competitive on my bike cycling to work because I was always overtaking everyone in front of me – the one in front was always the one to beat, so I would push and push, and sometimes when I got to work my legs were so saw I could barely get up stairs. Some of the guys cycling to work went to the Olympics
and some were in cycling clubs, so they must have thought that this guy in a t-shirt and normal shorts was crazy. But if I had a bile like they had and the training I think that I would have thrashed many of them.

True courage, facing the forces of evil and risking ones own life to save the many. 

This is why we have bright torches. I remember that night those two 20 years olds threatened me and shone their meager torch at my face, then I shone my torch at them and they were completely blinded 🙂

Watched The Iron Giant – 1999. Good movie.

Got my new Smart TV a couple of days ago and made a cabinet for it to sit on this evening. The TV works fine, and isn’t too big or small. I only watch the likes of YouTube and videos I buy or whats available. 
Never watch public TV, the advertising is insane, and very mentally disturbing.

When you fell in love, it happened, no force, no seduction, no one trying to make you do what you don’t feel comfortable doing, you looked, saw, and wanted, even without the other person even talking to you.

You ego, your pride, your sexual desires were not used in the first contact, but you heart knew, and that’s when the connection is made.

If someone really genuinely loves you, he or she will wait for many years for the likes of sex if you are not ready. Love is where people show their genuine love by waiting. A person who loves you will not pressure you, not force you, nor make you watch porn or movies to get you excited. People who respect you will respect your views, your beliefs, your wishes, and he or she will never push you when you are not ready.

And when you say, “No!”, even a gentle no, the one whp genunly loves you will listen, step back and leve you be, becuse a person who loves you knows when you need time, space, your own healing – there is no pressure.

If they were to pressure you then that person will cause you to feel guilt, give in, and then end up with mental scars, struggles, baggage, and sadness that they could not wait for you to be read (this means that the other person is weak and foolish because they couldn’t control themselves and didn’t care enough about u to let you heal in your time).

If they say that they love you but they can’t wit, then that person is not for you, and really cannot care for you, not enough to help you heal and be ready.

The Time-Stamp states 2016 but I am sure that they are probably 2020-2022 or after that date. maybe before, but also while they seem more modern than 2016, many things have changed if one looks closely. They are off the GoPro.

18th of February 2016?, cycling around the lake and walking home.

Pride & Proud

Pride and Proud have many facets they have been messed around in English literature for many years and this has confused their meanings in the public’s minds.

You can have pride or be proud of your child, but if you are proud or have foolish pride it is to your detriment.

Being proud of someone in the sense where that person has done well being a fair and good person is good. Being proud of your child when he or she cheats is not good. Like when the parents are proud or the school proud of the male child who claims to be a female and he competes and easily beats females in female sports.

We need a strong understanding of what being-fair is, so that we can apply such thoughts in our lives, and we can easily see what is right, what is not right, who is being an honest good soul and who isn’t, and then supporting the good soul.

An example of this is the parents who catch their own child beating a cripple, or someone smaller, or underprivileged, and the parents punishes their own child because the parents is ashamed of what their own child did to someone who was unable to protect his or herself.

Foolish Pride

Foolish Pride is what tends to stop us seeing the right situation for many reasons. But this pride is irrational, foolish, even silly, but Not Mature or Stable.

Parents with Foolish Pride harm their own family, children, other people, just to make themselves feel better or stronger.

Narcissistic people have very high foolish pride, due to them always being very sensitive about their own ego’s and how other people see them, so they will long-term persecute their own spouse and children just to preserve their public image, even though they do not deserve to be seen as a good person.

To the Narcissist, he or she must always be the winner, and they will persecute those who love them to win. Who is innocent or destroyed makes no difference, the only desire they have is to destroy their opponents and win.

Basically the Narcissist will stop at nothing to preserve their ego and public image. Foolishly they hurt all those who love them. 

And some adult-children of a Narcissist will foolishly protect and help their Narcissist parent/s. No one wins in such situations and all suffer, even the foolish Narcissist parents.

 

 

So, what is a Baptism, a Public Baptism?

The church version is a play acting of the real version of Baptism.

Heard of Baptism of Fire?

A Baptism, is a final reckoning, a part in your Walk With God, where you finally go Public with your Past, and with your Past Evils, to save, protect and help others.

Why is this a Baptism?
Because people have mountains of Pride, Ego, Shame, and so forth, that stops them doing the right thing for others, and thus, this Pubic Baptism is a very hard thing to do, thus they must burn their Ego and Pride at the Alter of God, and step forward to do the right thing, because God requires your Soul to be completely in line with His.

A Baptism is a public showing, or exposing of your past, your life, and what bad you have done to others, its a cleansing, removing of your old baggage, leaving a gap in your Soul for the New ways and a real God-Given Blessed Life.

Many of us come to a crossroad where we have to choose between a satanic life where we know deep down inside that its not God Blessed, and then a God Blessed life, but we must be cleansed of the past before we can get it. The choice is a very serious choice to make, and should not be considered lightly.

To be with God, the right thing must be don and this is often the hardest thing to do, but what God requires of us before God can lead us away from all that we dislike and fear, and take us to your deserved Destiny.

Note in the movies and books the bad guys always say that there must be great or much suffering before there can be peace?

What it really means is that people can only become aware of their own foolish ways when they suffer. When they are prideful, arrogant, so sure of themselves, they they cannot be reached or helped.

God steps back and lets the foolish experience some of what they actually deserve – God is not being unfair, He is just letting them get a taste of what they have earned, deserve, created for themselves, and when that happens they see life differently, the pride dissipates, and through the mist of foolishness (sin-cloud) they start to see that they are not in control and never were in control, God had been blessing them their entire lives up to this point, and God was protecting them with grace and love, compassion and empathy.

The more the foolish get of what they deserve the many who rush to God in fright and horror, and want to change their own ways voluntarily.
Some foolish people must experience this suffering a few times before they “click” and stick with God.


The “Much Suffering is the masses experiencing the results of their prideful, foolish, immoral indecent ways – they are getting a taste of what they deserve. If they repent (honestly) God will step in and pick up the pieces and put them back together again, but only if they men it and are actually wanting in reality to leave their satanic pasts behind them.

You, and only You, are the writer of your own future, be it good or bad, it is your works, your deeds, your own thinking, doings, and planning, and whichever is your god, Satan or God, is chosen by your Soul whether it be Dark or Light.

You cannot make a river do what you want it to do, you can though, use the power, flow and properties of the river and its banks and such, to your own personal advantage.

The same applies to God.

The churches, they want God to do this, and that, and behave in such a way, so they design a fake God to behave as they wish, to approve of what they wish to believe, and they put lies in their fake gods mouth.

They are not using the Power, Flow, Properties of God to their advantage.

God is a Definite, reality, not a creation of the human mind, thus in order to have a loving relationship with God, we must be with God in Love, Spirit, Hope, and so forth, and in this way we are with God, the Real Living God.

 To know God, You Must Know God!

To know God you must get close to God, in thoughts, prayer, daily routine, in actions, in faith, in living with Empathy, Compassion, Serving other people, helping those who God sends you to help.

 

You have a God Given Purpose – Your Life is a Design, created by God, to serve you trough your life, to make you powerful, strong, worthy, decent and good, and a shining example for all to see, know, appreciate, love and be grateful for knowing you.

It may seem to you that you have an enemy in me, or that I am a problem, an issue, and that can cause many lost and loose emotions about my effect on your life.

These uncontrolled and confused emotions and feelings can cause you to want to remove me from your life – this is only natural, because to you, it seems, that I am who is your enemy. I am just a Soul passing through your life, and one day I will be gone, thus my job is to hep make you strong, to help give you courage, to take you away from pride and ego and selfishness, and bring you to who you rally are.


In reality your enemy is your troubled Soul, your past, what society taught you, your habits and thinking that bring you to believing in conforming to the fake beliefs of society – these are your enemies, these are what make you captive, lost, angry, confused, distraught.


I am just a messenger, of no importance to most people, but a soul to be helpful, and that’s the point. 

You see, the messengers cannot be easily recognized when needed at first.

Imagine the poor Souls who God sent in to Pompeii to warn the people of their sinful satanic lifestyles to help them, and how much they were harming themselves and their young – these brave good souls/messengers would have been laughed at like Noah, because the people are so conformed to their bad living that they can see no other way to exist, and when another way is suggested they laugh.

People become desperate when desperate times come, they grow restless, confused, upset and they want the old ways back but they also want the new immoral and indecent ways as well.

When shown a new way, the ways of God, most people want to give up a bit of the past and they cling to the sins they enjoy so much, thus marrying in to a lifestyle they can pretend, lie to themselves, make out that all is good and God will approve, but in reality they knows deep down that eventually they will be indulging as they did before they found God.

Its hard to recognize a messenger because of our own irrational thinking, conformity to the beliefs of society, and habits etc. If your thinking is not on par with that persons thinking then you will not want the discomfort of being with them, or believing that person, because you love your comfort zones, and comforting lies that you and other people tell you.

The messengers, instead of being helped, honoured and loved, are always persecuted, they always suffer, struggle, live in poverty, because the people struggle to accept what the messengers teach.

it weird how you see people over and over again, and at weird times. I keep seeing that strange blonde from Noel Leemings in Tokoroa. I see her in the giftd car, and always at night when she walks out of the hsoue and stuff on Grampian Street. I am sure that she is up to no good.

Scroll to Top