By gosh do I know that feeling. Sure seems like they sometimes. But you don’t need other people to show you how valuable you are. Be your own best friend, and you will find how wonderful life is when you are taking a break from people, finding yourself, getting to know yourself much better without other people’s interference.
I remember being ignored by others in the past, feeling so sad, so alone, and then it occurred to me that this was a wonderful opportunity for me to get to know myself better. I didn’t need other people for that, and I realized that other people get in the way when we are doing some soul searching.
I asked myself, “James what did you want to be when you were a child?” Over the next few days all sorts of of wonderful memories came of what I wanted to do when I grew up, the hobbies I wanted to try the places I wanted to go to, the type of marriage I wanted, the love and happiness I desired.
I took up acrylic painting, learned to play guitar, did some fun cooking, watched movies I wanted to see but hadn’t, read books I had not got around to read, and did a lot of thinking about life, what I really wanted to be, and I got to finding that inner child and bringing him up again in a better way with much more fun and in doing this, soul searching, I discovered that I liked a lot more about myself than I previously realized. People taught me to dislike myself in the past, now it was time to find out what I liked myself spending time with me.
My confidence and courage were growing with my feelings of self worth. I was becoming more how I wanted to be when I was a child/teenager.
Being alone for some time gave me time to change without other people pushing me, and I started to see the damage from other people’s influence in my life. And I got to really like what a fun person I am, and I got to like my new choices and the new people that started entering my life.
Life is how we see it and react to it. You can see being alone two ways. One is to be insecure and feel lonely and sad, the other is to see this as a marvelous opportunity to get real with ourselves and find ourselves again, to grow again and especially to enjoy our own company.
All the best from James Martin Sandbrook.
Monday, 20 August 2018, 5:34:50 PM.